So I took another leap of faith: I hired an outside CEO and went on retreat to Bali to stare at the ocean and discover what was missing. Through music and meditation I found the answers I was looking for.
First, I realized that all my life I had been achieving on the outside in an attempt to fill a hole on the inside. I finally saw this dead-end and I committed to filling the hole from the inside through deep inner work and self love.
Secondly, I realized my true genius is creating things, and that I had outgrown this genius at Kindara. As we had become successful I had become a manager (not my genius!) and neglected my true gift (creating awesome products). No wonder I was miserable!